Its been a rough few weeks--between utter sleep deprivation brought on by stress and working waaaaay too many hours, PMS, and running out of my multivitamin and other supplements, the scale has crept back up. It had gone up to 214, but its beginning to nudge back down again and is currently hovering at 212 or so. With my whacked sleep schedule of late, I don't have an accurate weight, so where it'll end now that the bloating of PMS is receding is anyone's guess. I have a few days off, so I should have a better idea tomorrow.
I've been having thoughts of changing my goal to something heavier since it feels like I'll NEVER reach 125, but for now I'll leave it alone. I need to let that sit where it is and focus on getting under 200 pounds. THAT will be a huge accomplishment. Hopefully this mindset will improve and I'll start to feel thin again. I was feeling much thinner for a while there, and now mentally I feel fat and stodgy again. I guess I just need to find my focus again. The bingefest of a week ago seems to be over and I have a modicum of equilibrium once again--I just need to see the scale starting to head down again and that will greatly improve my emotional state. Part of the distinct feeling of fatness is the fact that we are swimming again and since my daughter threw out my old swimsuit (it was much too large and hanging off me) the cheap Wal-Mart replacement I got is NOT flattering. The top is alright, but the bottom is too tight and the little skirt is much too short. It doesn't even cover the little panties in the back, and barely comes to the bottom of the panties in the front--whats point of that? The skirt should come to about two inches above mid thigh in order to cover what it needs and not leave me feeling totally naked. I may try on some new suits now that the summer selections are in--I don't want to feel like a beached whale every time I swim! Sleek porpoise perhaps, but definitely not a whale--not even a manatee. *grin*
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Check out this month's Oprah! There's a section of before and after pics, of women with nothing different in the after pic except a different swimsuit. Amazing!
I tend to choose my suits according to how well they support on top, and whether the straps meet in back. I can't stand regular bathing suit straps because as soon as I start exercising, the straps start to fall off my shoulders. I gave up on modest little skirts (to the horror of everyone around me I'm sure, but they'll just have to suffer) because when I get out of the pool they are SO heavy and they cling around your legs and make you FREEZE! Of course that wouldn't be a problem if you're swimming outside in the sun, but at an indoor pool at 5 a.m. it's mighty chilly!
Not sure why I wanted to share my swimsuit frustrations this morning, but there you have it!
Have a great weekend, Katlinel!
Oh... manatees are cute! LOL
Remember new swimsuit desings are to show skin. Maybe it is ment to be that way. But if you feel unconfortable, buy another one witch you feel prettier.
Regards of the weight. Remember you are exercising. Derefore you are building muscles. Muscles weight more than fat. SO, KEEP IT GOING! Dont be discourage a bit!
GBY
I agree with Edith. You are working out and that is good. I am worried that my scale progress will slow once I start lifting weights (I ordered a bowflex) but I know that I will have flappy loose skin and whats the point in loosing weight if you look horrible afterwards. Muscle does weigh more than fat but it does take up a lot less space so even though you may weigh more, you are smaller. Have you taken your measurements? Tried on some older clothes? Try that before you get too discouraged. I can relate to the goal situation also, my goal is 145 and I currently weigh 243 (and that is after a 25 pound loss) but I know all about fast weightloss so I am trying to remember that slow steady weightloss is the kind that lasts and fast starvation weightloss is the kind that comes right back.
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